I’m leaving my “temporary” home

Five years ago I moved from Small Town USA to Bloomington, Indiana to attend Indiana University. In my naive mind, Bloomington was this massive city that was both absolutely terrifying and unequivocally mesmerizing at the same time. I was thrilled to move away and live the college lifestyle that I always envied in the movies. You know, party everyday and eventually graduate and receive an expensive piece of paper. Deep down I told myself that Bloomington and IU was my “temporary” home. I was going there for school and parties, nothing to it. Little did I know, I would experience some of life’s highest highs and lowest lows in this ol’ college town.

Now that my move-out date is quickly approaching, I’ve been reflecting on my time here and just the thought of saying goodbye¬†is making my heart heavy. I’ve watched some of my closest friends come and go and now that it’s my turn, I’m not mentally prepared.

I never thought this would be the place where I would fall in love, meet my forever friends, or experience how adult life REALLY works. (I still wouldn’t wish adulting on anyone.)

But this is that place. I did fall in love; with my neighbor right across the street to be exact. I did meet my forever friends and I even got the chance to live with them and make so many extraordinary memories along the way. And yes, it IS the place where I learned that I have to bust my ass to get what I want. Even if it was a degree in journalism that I’m struggling with daily to find a decent job. (Not to discourage anyone from pursuing their dream of being a journalist. I’m fine, I promise.)

Bloomington is where I became the woman that I am today. This town and the people I’ve met have shaped me into a selfless, understanding, loving, passionate soul. Yes, I’ve had my rough patches, more than I would like to admit, but the good times outweigh the bad tremendously.

So, with that being said, I look forward to coming back and visiting. I can’t wait to drive past the apartments and houses that I have lived in to reminisce on the one too many beer bong races that I WON on the doorsteps. I can’t wait to pass the bars and have a flood of memories come over me. And I cannot wait to come back and stand in front of those sample gates and be thankful for accomplishing something that not many people get the opportunity to accomplish.

Bloomington will always hold such a special place in my heart. I never knew I would get so attached, but damn I’m glad I did. I wouldn’t trade these past five years for anything in the world.

Thank you, B-Town. It’s been real.

Real. Fun.Sample Gates

Let’s catch up..

It has been a while since I’ve made a post, but as I lay in bed and watch a live stream of the Dave Matthews Band concert I am overwhelmed with excitement. 

This summer is going to be one to remember. (As every summer should be for a college student) In two weeks I will be road tripping with a great friend to Alabama for two DMB shows. The Tuscaloosa show happens to fall on my birthday and my excitement level is THROUGH THE ROOF. I have never been to a show on my birthday and to top it all off, we have PIT tickets!

Now, after the Alabama shows we come back for one day and then we’re hitting two more shows closer to home. Four shows in five days. This is the kind of thing that I live for. Road trip with best friends, great music, seeing old friends, meeting beautiful people along the way. 

I will be attending a couple shows in July and then in September I will be returning to the beautiful state of Washington to revisit the place that changed my life, The Gorge. Three more amazing days of Dave and the boys and I’ll be traveling with my cousin who is now located in LA, so we’ll drive along the coast and make unforgettable memories together. 

Now, let’s back up a little bit. Last week I traveled to Nashville and Louisville to see Frank Turner perform. (Yes, I am a live music junkie) While there, I saw a girl in the front row next to us with tears streaming down her face. Not due to sadness, it was due to the happiness that his songs made her feel. I was tearing up because I know that EXACT feeling. Music has a way of reaching into our souls and lifting us up higher than we’ve ever been. 

I am so grateful that I’ve been given this life and I’ve been able to experience the amazing things that I have. Music is a way of life for me and I’m sure, to many of you. I have met some amazing, beautiful souls due to the Dave Matthews Band and if I’ve learned one thing from them; always be accepting and show the love that everyone deserves. Be true to yourself and great things will happen. 

Now, with that said, I wish you all a beautiful summer and you’ll be able to keep up on my travels during the next few months because I will definitely be posting about my adventures. I hope you all enjoy! 

Peace & Love

Let’s Get Personal

Why is it that we, as humans, obsess over being given love and affection from someone else?

Why do we put it as a priority above all else that comes into this world. Why do we search for acceptance from society? We pride ourselves on being independent individuals, but at what point will we truly be independent?

How far will we go until we are emotionally satisfied?

They say you have to love yourself before others can love you. Is this true? If so, what if we cannot find the inner strength to accept ourselves because we have been living under the scrutiny of our peers and we have been telling ourselves that we will never be good enough. If you tell yourself something for so long, you start to believe it. It starts to become fact.

Maybe we need to shed this idea that in order for someone to love us, we must first love ourselves.

Maybe we just need that ONE person to tell us that we are special.

Maybe we just need that ONE person to love us, maybe then we will start to look at ourselves differently, more positively.

Be that ONE person that someone is searching for to tell them that it’s OKAY.

It’s okay to be insecure sometimes, it’s okay to want to hide away.

Be that ONE person that will show someone that they don’t have to be afraid to show love and affection.

Life is short, don’t waste it by being the one person who puts someone down, who tells them that they will be alone if they can’t find the inner strength to love themselves.

Don’t be the one person who refuses to have sympathy and compassion for those unable to show the same feelings.

As we get older, we tend to see and experience more negative outlooks on life. Pass some positivity forward today and tell someone you love them. Tell someone that they are not alone.

No matter what path you’re on at the moment, your footprints are accompanied with others.

As you evaluate this you realize how love and affection are truly important. It is absolutely dire for someone to know that they are loved.

That they can go through this crazy roller coaster of a life knowing that no matter how deep the hills go, there is ONE person who will be waiting to bring them to the top and look back on those deep hills as something that they can grow from.

Be that ONE person.

Spontenaity

I’ll be the first to admit that I have never been a spontaneous person. I love having my plans laid out a week in advance. BUT, last August I decided last minute to take a cross-country trip to Seattle, Washington. My favorite band, Dave Matthews Band, plays a three-day show in George, Washington every Labor Day Weekend.
I booked my first flight and boarded my first plane in Indianapolis. I was extremely nervous, but I knew that I wouldn’t regret it.
I landed in Seattle around 10 a.m. and eventually found my way out of SEA-TAC. Checked into my hotel and iced down some much needed beer.
I met up with my friends who were generous enough to give me a ride to the campsite.
The adventure had just begun.
If you have never witnessed the beauty that is “The Gorge” you are missing out. It is the most beautiful venue I have ever witnessed with my own two eyes.
I was in pit all three nights and camped with the most amazing people I have ever met.
It was truly three days of peace, love, and music. The band put on an amazing performance (as usual).
Like I said, I am usually one to make plans weeks in advance, but ever since taking this trip, I have become so spontaneous. Taking day trips to Tennessee to see a live band, making a trip to Chicago just because. Visiting Indianapolis just to try out a new bar.
Life is full of amazing opportunities and I now believe you should put yourself out there. Be spontaneous, be adventurous. Make memories that you can tell your grandchildren about. Make them want to see what you’ve seen.
And most importantly, love every damn second of it!

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